~aheroicpledge

Business first: Somehow, I missed a few older comments and I'm really sorry for not replying! I'm replying to them now, so please don't be so surprised when the messages show up.


Now, for the more pressing matter.

I have been really wary of posting up some OCs for my Jak fic, as I felt at the time that it would have been spoiling later chapters. Recently, I was having a change of heart as I was working with other character appearances for later in the fic, and felt that soon was a good time post them.

When I saw Blu updated her stuff with a sketch dump, however, my heart dropped. Now, please get this straight. I love her stuff, and in NO WAY am I upset with her at all. She didn't do ANYTHING wrong, as I haven't released these sketches at all. But now I don't want to upload my sketches, for several reasons.

SPOILER( For 'The New Age' )

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Jak's mother Bree appears half-way through the fic. I worked nonstop last semester creating a history for her, and sketched her profusely. She's been my gem, and up til now I could hardly contain my excitement and have been pushing myself to introduce her at the right time. But then I see Blu's sketch of the girl with dreads and I -die-. Bree had dreads, as does this girl, and Bree's got tattooed shit all over her face, much like what Blu's girl has. They both even have the head wrap thing. ;________; I tried tweaking, but it's no use. Bree is simply not Bree without these things.

It also doesn't help how she incorporates facial tattoos and a bi-colored short-haired girl. While I posted 'Baddy' earlier, Pan's new look required her head getting shaved, rendering her very similar to the girl at the bottom of the dump page.

All of this leads to my next problem.

Blu has a huuuge watch list and has nearly 80,000 views. I have 13 watchers and barely 1,200 views. People in this fandom are vicious, and I'm seriously afraid of the consequences if I put up Bree. I'm sure someone's gonna 'cry wolf' and then a whole flame war is gonna end up on my page "for playjerizing Blu's wunderfull creeayshuns!!1!!". And I read all the shit that went down on Discedo and I've seen others get hammered for 'copying other people's OCs'. Plus, people are much more willing to defend someone who has been firmly established in the community than someone who is new.

Quite frankly, I'm SCARED. If my sketches of Marauder members with facial tattoos appear now, along with Pan's new look, I'll probably be slaughtered and my name will be slandered. I'm afraid I'll be alienated by the very people whom I look up to in the fandom(both by Blue and Nashi)and I'm seriously afraid of -those- consequences.


Which leads me to the point of this journal.

What do all of you think I should do?

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